Life of an arabian princess

Ive made up my mind.. dont need to think it over if im wrong i am right

dont need to look no further.

SHOULD i give up? 

or should i just keep chasing pavements even if it leads no where?

Should I just give up? 

I build myself up.

This song touches me, idk why. I always feel like giving up but somehow i get the strength to just keep.. sorry for the irony, chasing pavements.

sometimes i feel so alone, but im not. i shouldnt give up, my time will come… right?

Today is yes, October 31,2011.. YAY halloween. not to me. I never really liked halloween, i understand how fun it is, halloween parties, dressing up as slutty as possible, trick or treating with friends. My halloweens were neverr like that. I never bought a costume from party city (or any halloween store) I have NEVER gone to a halloween party (much less even be invited) or even gone trick or treating around the block with friends (last year was my FIRST time) sad. right? now that im older i wish i could dress up and look super cute, not slutty just cute, and have fun but no halloween is just another day where i get to voulnteer at church and pass out candy! yeah i LOVE doing it but i hate the part where i have to dress up… its between a ballerina (im already one -___-) or a nerdy tweety bird (t shirt and white jeans) fun right?

So i thought this day would be HECK until i woke up. learned kim kardashian was getting a divorce (go figure) than went to my theatre class where i was told i had written the best review my teacher had read so far. MAJOR compliment. Than sociology FLEW by and we spent the last 20 min in class doing an acitivity and than found out my last class got canceled. so i went SHOPPING:) where i bought a cute shirt for SIX bucks. PRETTY awesome day if you ask me. 

THAN it went down the tube : ( not like i had any major bad things but my friend was being dumb which made me angry, than got home and BURST at my brother for not leaving my room. i hate being alone in my room or anywhere for that matter. my brother wanted to hang out with me in my room and i burst. i got so angry and started kicking,punching,smacking him. WHY? why did i have SO much anger inside of me? i dont know… school? friends? family? depression.

Yeah, im taking 17 units as a freshman but i have a feeling im failing two classes. good bye UCLA.